lac0olant @ 2026-04-30T21:23:00

2026-05-01T01:25:11Z

Finally home after driving

I like the new car I got but I absolutely hate that using a car is mandatory; just not super my thing. I can't see anything at night ether, all the lights blend into each other and I can't see the road.

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Times like these

2026-04-30T13:38:15Z

My head is extremely foggy today, waking up feeling depressed has humor in itself.

Like, "What's got you down? You just woke up and the day hasn't started yet!" which obviously doesn't change what is but these are valid questions to have. Why do I feel this way, horse-man?

Hypothetically, it could be a number of things. The state of the world, my dad's mortality catching up quick, still not finding a lot of people irl on the same wavelength as I, no breakfast, more finals to do, I probably need to shower, it's been two days and I don't want to get in the habit of putting it off.

What blessings have I? Well, as bare minimum as it is I'm here and I'm still doing just shy of okay. I have a loving partner, I'm not doing as terribly grade-wise as I presumed I'd be, my job is alright.

Still feeling melancholy but it's likely just the lingering thing you can't do much about, that's how the brain works sometimes; it's not worth crashing out over or the despair.

It's times like this I imagine someone pointing a stern finger at me while I'm already on the ground and then they say something like "Now, WHAT are you going to do about it?!" This question, though having a sting to the words, is not meant with anything Ill and is instead well-meaning like a drill-sergeant or a mentor.

I think what I'll do is... Slow down. There's things I can and can't fix but you can't tell the difference if you're going too fast.

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Always Sleepy? Always Dreaming!

lac0olant @ 2026-04-30T21:23:00

Times like these